Excerpts from GroundWorks DanceTheater performance of “wait.now.go now.”
- Choreography: Johannes Wieland
- Performance: Premiered at Allen Theater, Playhouse Square, Ohio
- Date: October 24 & 25, 2014
- Dancers: Noelle Cotler, Troy Macklin, Damien Highfield, Felise Bagley, Annika Sheaff
- Lighting: Dennis Dugan
- Music: Compilation recording by Johannes Wieland
- Costumes: Janet Bolick
- Set Pieces: Ian Petroni
- Sound: Chuck Karnak
“Ride on,” my mantra,
reminding myself to keep moving
forward, ride the pain until it
is forced to submit.
I promised myself I would not
allow my addiction to overcome me.
But, it was a sickness I could not cure.
A provocative whisper:
“Now. Come now.”
Sharp ringing in my ears,
I feel the cold steel against
the throbbing vein, burning for relief.
She cackles, plunging the needle
into my skin. Unyielding, her maniacal
smile quickens my heart, or is that
from the fluid filled syringe?
Immediately, my mind spindles
into a kaleidoscope, spinning
me this way and that, dragging
me across the floor of my soul.
Pictures of my past display
on the front of my brain
while I sit, eyes forced open by
an invisible dominant.
I hear laughing. Terror kidnaps
my thoughts as I collapse to the ground.
I grab my knees and sway with the
maddening melody of her words:
‘Ride on, ride on.’
That’s your theme song now?
Reeling, I look at my hand,
Fingers clasped around the syringe.
With a blink, the object is replaced
by a gorgeous gun.
The cackles grow boisterous,
deafening my soul with darkness.
“Really? ‘Ride on, ride on?’ ”
I stroke the barrel, eyes wide with adoration.
“Come on! That’s your theme song now?”
I slowly lift the pistol until the tip reaches my lips.
“Really? Come on!”
Softly, I brush the smooth, beautiful trigger.
“Wait.” I stop.
“Now. Go now.”